// Outfit Details //
Top: J.Crew Factory (old)
Denim: Paige
Heels: Kristin Cavallari
Sunglasses: J.Crew Factory
Earrings: Boutique (similar)
Watch: Kate Spade
Handbag: Sole Society similar here
I have loved wearing grey lately. I feel like it’s a neutral that can be paired in so many great ways. Between dresses, denim, and tops, I’m sure you’re beginning to realize just how much grey is in my closet. I wore grey denim here, a grey sweater here, and a grey dress here. It will be a nice neutral to add color to as we transition in to spring soon.
On yesterday’s post, I shared photos and news that we are expecting baby #4 this summer. I thought I would take a few minutes to share a little more about our journey to baby number four.
My husband, Caleb, is the oldest of two children and I’m the second oldest of seven. That’s right, I have 6 siblings! Five brothers, one sister, and love it! Early in our marriage, Caleb and I agreed on when we would try to start our family and how many children we hoped to have. Of course, this was before actually having any children.
Fast forward to six years and three kids later, I wasn’t sure that I felt ‘done’. Caleb knew that I really {really, really} wanted another baby girl and was reluctantly open to the idea of adding to our family. He kept reminding me that we couldn’t control the gender of a biological child, which then led us to discussing adoption. All the while, he was gently reminding me that I needed to decide whether I was wanting another child, regardless of the gender, or if I was only wanting a child to have another girl.
During the following months, we continued to casually discuss and pray about the possibility of adding to our family. I say “casually” because I wasn’t really sure if I wanted any of it. And then while laying in bed one night, I decided I needed to be serious about this and I prayed for specifics. ‘Were we meant to have a fourth child? If so, biologically or adoption?’ I was nervous and so unsure. I also knew that if we had a baby of our own, I needed to be ‘okay’ with the fact that there was a 50/50 chance for it being a boy. That night, I had the most vivid dream that I had a baby {was pregnant and gave birth} and I woke up the next morning feeling SO happy and excited about that dream.
Still unsure that I wanted it to be an ‘answer to prayer’, I didn’t say anything about it to Caleb. But later that day, he asked me if I had given much more thought to baby number 4, so I told him. He said he had been praying that I would just know. No matter the answer I found, he just wanted me to know and be happy. We took that dream as our ‘answer’ and less than a month later I knew I was pregnant! I say “I knew” because I was still in a bit of denial and didn’t want to test. I was having similar pregnancy symptoms that I remember having with my first pregnancy, but I wasn’t sure I wanted it confirmed. I know, not an easy one to convince. Ha! Even Caleb was bugging me to test. But I waited almost a week, (after I ‘knew’) to test and sure enough my gut was spot on. Clear as day, it was a positive. On our dinner date that night, I told Caleb that ready or not, baby number four was on the way!
And so began this journey that we are on…